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My Life With Autism

My name is Maleia and I am eleven years old. I feel like other kids my age but my world is very different. I'm forced to live in the world of autism. To me there is a gospel different from yours. Autism affects me both academically and personally.

Autism affects me academically in many ways. First, I reason differently than you. Personally, I can't understand why people get so involved in good work when I'm just trying to get some feeling in my wooden body. You see lights, I hear lights. You see fun classroom, I see torture chamber. This makes it very hard for me to sit and do good work.  I work best in quiet space, with dreamy lights and few people. Secondly, I'm affected academically by the foolish way my brain gets stuck. Words, thoughts, hoards of emotions spin a riot in my head. How can I speak or know drops of thoughts when there's an ocean in my head? Lastly, gears in my head don't work together. Rooms are empty in feelings, gears can't connect. How can I fit into a world forcing feelings I don't have? This makes understanding the class work impossible.

Autism also affects me personally. I'm always trying to understand so much activities that are easy for other kids. You see fun game with lots of friends but I see stupid game with too many people. Autism also affects me personally when people love me but don't feel that I love them. Too many people don't understand that I'm feeling love but that I don't have the words or the right look on my face. This is the hardest thing about autism. Tales of having map of emotions I hear but don't see. Another way autism affects me personally by racing through my body when I'm around other kids my own age. Truly I want to go places and be with other kids but autism grows hungry with so many bodies and I'm lost because the map is gone, spares not around.

This is how autism affects my life both academically and personally. My gospel is different than yours and maps are different than yours. People who want to help me need to understand that they can't understand what my world is like and to hope for better days when I'm in control, not the autism.